Reflections six

sitting
gazing
into the moon
the glow shining below...
capturing the
emotion of the night -
the wind is brisk
the sound of crickets
set the mood...
the moving water infront
can you imagine the peace?
the wind is soft
skin of one's face
sudden breathless
moment stare into the water
daydreaming the fantasy movie
scripted in my mind...
the music plays softly
in the image
my mind has...
I am my own star lead
the director of my own movie
capturing people I choose to cast -
Casting someone
who sits next to me
faceless as the
headless horse-man -
the comfort I feel
sitting arm to arm
with my eyes closed
from real to fantasy -
I can control
my dreams ...
lose control
of my reality...
I turn my head
facing the faceless man
he lays his arm
around my shoulders
pulls me closer to him -
as my head lays
on his shoulder
the scent of him -
I am paralyzed.
He is soundless
no need for words
the moon reflects
from the water,
the crisp air gives
coolness to skin -
I allow someone else
to take control...
his hand takes my hand
he has soft skin
gentle touch
he holds with no force -
Leaves and branches sway
with the wind
the sound of the water
relaxes the heart
the mind has no stress -
I find someone else shows care
taking control
taking care of me -
I can just sit
daydream as this
faceless man comforts -
As I sit
my eyes flutter open
the moon light
blinds me
I turn
where my faceless man once sat
no more comfort
my heart yearns
for the faceless man
who took my hand
put me into
my own dream -
I stare to the moon
trying to remember...
gave myself permission
freed myself
faceless man gave me a chance
to feel who I wanted
to be only in my dreams
only in the movie I direct -
He made is exit
left me sitting
once again - alone
feeling so close
feeling alive
waiting here with him
forever I am alone -
all I wanted
is to have him hold me close
almost believing
this was not pretend -
so far we are so close
how can I face a day
should I lose you now?
we are so close
reaching the happy ending
believing this was
not pretend,
but I am dreaming -
so close so close and still so far
the scent of him will be
all I know -
I sit for what seemed like eternity
unsure what the next step
I should make -
my thoughts
race back to the moment
when I felt so close
my stomach aches -
I was so close
he was here
my eyes opened
he was gone
how to face the day
I was to lose you -
now we once
were so close
we could have had a happy ending -
so close so close,
yet still so far -

by me